Feel the Music

An Announcement

Thu, 25 Oct 2007 19:11:25 GMT

http://community.livejournal.com/flyingblind_rpg/44030.html?mode=reply

It's with mixed feelings that I post this, that we've come to the end. I've enjoyed the time and the friends I've made, the good times and the not so good times.

Truth be told I'm feeling more emotional than I thought I would so I think I'm going to see it as a new beginning, rather than an end, a stepping stone to the future.

Thank you to everyone who's friended us, followed along and cared about us.

Kev and Tro, all my love, now and forever. We're building our future, it's ours now, we make our own.

I love you.

I always have and always will be your Cat.

Tro

Fri, 07 Sep 2007 05:31:44 GMT

Happy birthday, my love. I love you. Now, forever and then some.

Tro

Sun, 19 Aug 2007 09:21:22 GMT

Want to go for 2 out of 3?

You won the first round 6-5 and I won the second with the same.

Or we could go 3 out of 4 which might be a little more apt. Up to you, love.

*grins* See what I mean about removing shirts being distracting? Not that I'd use your own stragety against you of course...

[Filtered for Kev]

Fri, 10 Aug 2007 04:47:55 GMT

We need to talk.

[Private Post]

Tue, 07 Aug 2007 06:50:16 GMT

I feel better this week than I did last week, but still not right as such. I'm not sure whether I'm going to totally feel right ever again. Logically I know this emptiness and pain will fade in time, but it is as though a part of me has been ripped away and there is nothing I can do about it.

I didn't want to break up with Kev. I love him. I always will. I'm torn between knowing it wasn't working - that last argument made that very clear - and hoping that this separation is only temporary.

But already the bond between us is fading. I can still feel him, but not as I could. When I take the sedatives to sleep, I can not feel him at all. I hate that. I always have. I still roll over in bed to put my arm around him only to realise with a start that he is not there. That this is something I will never be able to do again.

I want to hold him, touch him, love him. But I can't.

I'm trying to move forward. It's one of the reasons I agreed to take these bloody pills. I need to be there for Tro. He's not dealing with this any better than I am. I can feel his pain. He thinks he's failed Kev, but he hasn't. We've all made mistakes in this. The last one was mine.

I keep looking at my ring, at our ring. I won't take it off. It's still ours, not just Tro's and mine, but Kev's as well and that won't change. I won't give that up, anymore than I will change the name of this journal, or stop using this icon.

I love you, Kev. I'm so sorry this hasn't worked. I wanted a future together. I still do, I just...

*wipes at my eyes* Tro will be home soon. I'm going to hold him tight and love him, and let him love me. We've been doing a lot of that since Kev left. And talking. And crying.

I have to start to move forward, to live my life. To be there for Tro. He needs me.

This has to stop hurting soon. Doesn't it?

[Filtered for Friends] Leave of Absence

Fri, 27 Jul 2007 02:36:51 GMT

I'm not going to be around for a while. I'm sorry, I have a lot to work through at the moment and I am not feeling up to dealing with people.

I know I haven't exactly been around lately either, so this really is not enough and too late.

I'm sorry.

[filtered for Megabyte]

Sat, 14 Jul 2007 11:32:11 GMT

I'm at Harry's. Could you give me a lift home? I don't want to disturb Tro and Kev and I'd rather not spend the night here even though Harry's offered me the spare room.

really not up to porting.

ThanK You

[Behind The Curtain] Trowa and Quatre

Mon, 02 Jul 2007 21:33:35 GMT

Trowa: *shrugs* I've been thinking.

Quatre: Thinking about what?

Trowa: *quietly* about the job.

Quatre: What about it?

Trowa: *shrugs* I....I want a different one. not directly, there's no rush and i'm not going to resign but ...i don't like it any more.

Quatre: *softly* I know. *pause* So what can we do about it?

Trowa: *realises that sounds like a petulant five year old

Quatre: raises an eyebrow* I changed degrees, you're allowed to change jobs, Tro.

Trowa: *looks up, lays myhead back down* How did you know?

Quatre: I can feel you. I know you've been restless there, not enjoying it for some time.

Trowa: *shrugs* its a job. Its not a bad job as such. *quietly* I've done far worse. and i'm not going to leave you and Kev in a lurch

Quatre: We both have. That doesn't mean you can't do something you don't enjoy. *smiles* You wouldn't be. We both have other income, I have my tutoring and his living expensees are covered by his scholarship. We'd manage.
*strokes your hair* Have you thought about what you might like to do?

Trowa: *nods* I know we could manage..but I like being able to dtake you out to dinner once in a while. *shrugs* I don't know what I want.

Quatre: I don't care what we do as long as we're together. Besides, I could always take you out for dinner occasionally. *slowly* Sometimes you know what you want when you see it. *pauses for a moment* You miss Preventers, don't you?

Trowa: *shakes my head* You need that money for books and stuff. *nods quietly* I ..I know its dangerous, but I need to do something. I feel twitchy

Quatre: *nods very quietly* You're not the only one who misses it.

Trowa: *looks up sharply**smiles slightly, teasing* Adrenaline junkie.

Quatre: *slight grin* Okay, I admit to it. *Slightly wistful* I miss piloting, that adrenalin rush in battle. Facing up against someone. Being out in the field. It was one of the reasons I got out of law. I could see myself being buried in paperwork and in the same position I would have been in if I'd stayed with WEI.

Trowa: *quietly* So do I. Not the fighting as much, but at preventers I was making a difference. Before ...Before the gundams I wasn't.

Quatre: *shakes my head* You make a difference by being you, Tro. Don't sell yourself short like that. *traces a pattern with my fingers down your chest* So we think about another job for you and keep our eyes open for something suitable. *thinking aloud* But something in the meanwhile perhaps....*looks up at you slightly sheepish* You know the other thing I miss? I used to do it when I'd feel like this,when I needed some kind of rush.

Trowa: *shrugs* I enjoyed beijng able to fight, but it was better with a reason. *leans into your touch* I can stay where I am in the mean time. Its not a bad job. What do you miss?

Quatre: *looks down, slightly embarassed* My bike. I lost track of the amount of speeding tickets I got on it. *slight grin* It was amusing though when I'd take off my helmet and the cops realised who I was. I suspect my public image, the one WEI liked to promote wasn't exactly that of an ex gundam pilot adrenalin junkie.

Trowa: *snickers at that one* I'm surprised it never made the press.
*eyes you* who was your press person anyway? they were good. *soberly* we can get you one if you want. Or we can build one.

Quatre: *shrugs* I wouldn't care if it had, but I suspect someone at WEI dealt with it. By that stage I was past caring

Trowa: *reaches up and kisses you* I've got the tools at WorldEx. We could get the parts.

Quatre: *looks at you* Build one? *feels a rush of excitement at the thought* What if we built two? I'm not sure Kev would want one but he might ride with one of us. I'm not a good as a mechanic as you are but I'm no slouch. I could help.

Trowa: *grins* get all greasy ...and grubby,,,

Quatre: Clean off afterwards, in the shower.

Trowa: *nods* we could do two as well. *feels rather warm and fuzzy inside at that thought.* Kev could ride pillion passenger.

Quatre: *nods* I'm on break, I could work on it *frowns* Where though? thinks Aunt Ruth has that space in her garage, I could ask her if you'd like, or you could. She was hinting the other day that you don't visit enough.

Trowa: We could do that. Borrow tools from work, and work at Aunt Ruth's. *hesitates* I think i should go and see her more.

Quatre: She said that you are welcome anytime. She worries about you.

Trowa: *kisses down your chin* I'll see if I can go this week. She should worry about you and kev more. you two need feeding up. Both of you

Quatre: *shakes my head* So do you, my love. So do you.

Trowa: *doesn't mention i've been worried about how thin both of you have been since I got back**pats my stomach* and lose my girlish figure? *smirks* besides, how would I do half the stunts I do with a belly, hmm?
*realises it doesn't really matter*

Quatre: *snorts* Your figure is anything but girlish *lets my eyes wander appreciatively up and down you, lingering on your groin*

Trowa: *quietly* I miss Cathy sometimes.

Quatre: I know, love. *softly* No regrets though? Of what you left behind?

Trowa: *shakes my head **realised i have been tearing up a little* No regrets. I'd rather be here with you.*smiles* but I sometimes miss the Circus. Flying. Cathy.

Quatre: *leans down and kisses you softly**smiles* We've both given up things to be here but I think we are where we are meant to be, and who we are meant to be with. I've made my choice and it was the right one.

Trowa: *nods* this is the right one, but both of us lost things. Pays your money and makes your choice i guess. *pulls you down for another kiss**smirks* want me to show you what I don't have to miss?

Quatre: *leans into the kiss, deepening it* [Please.] *is already tugging at the bottom of your shirt*

Trowa: *smiles into your kiss* [my pleasure.]

I was tagged by darthanne

Mon, 02 Jul 2007 21:23:33 GMT

1. Grab the nearest book.
2. Open the book to page 123.
3. Find the fifth sentence.
4. Post the text of the next 4-7 sentences on your LJ along with these instructions.
5. Don't you dare dig for that "cool" or "intellectual" book in your closet! I know you were thinking about it! Just pick up whatever is closest (unless it's too troublesome to reach and is really heavy. Then go back to step 1).
6. Tag five people.

Joanna's lab was deep beneath the theatre. No one else came here, not even Gregorio.

A puff of cold air burst out as she opened the door. 'Close it,' she told the Doctor as she stepped inside. "This is a C1 lab.'

'I have another lab elsewhere for the more hazardous experiements," she said. 'This is where I do the bulk of my work.'

Doctor Who, Vampire Science by Jonathan Blum and Kate Orman.

I tag vfm_dorlain, drsullivan, girl_from_unit, dragons_honor and adam_jason

[Filtered for Megabyte] Tomorrow

Sat, 30 Jun 2007 06:42:41 GMT

Tomorrow is under control. I've talked to Liam and Ian and we'll keep Adam busy for as long as you need us to. Path me when you've got the party set up and we'll bring him home.

I figure with the music shops a fair distance apart and it very important to look over all the guitars available to make the right choice for his nephew, it's going to take a while to get the information Emily wants.

[Private Post] Family

Wed, 27 Jun 2007 23:16:51 GMT

I had an interesting encounter with Jack Harkness earlier this week. Yes, Harkness not Smith although Tro assures me he was going to tell me at some point, not spring it on me in front of the man himself.

The last time we met a few weeks ago for the six monthly checkout the interview finished rather abruptly with Jack not believing I was not trying to read his mind and his leaving. I know he was upset and I do not know why. His reaction at this meeting when he discovered I am empathic makes me wonder if he has had a history of others with our abilities. What I picked up from him was a strong mixture of anger, indignation and pain.

The other information that slipped out during our conversation was...I'm still trying to get my head around it. I suspected he was a time traveller as we are. He did not 'feel' right - empathic signatures are unique and that uniqueness factors in a lot of variables.

What I didn't expect was for him to have spent time in our time, in the future, or rather a few years after we left. Or that he'd spent that living with my sister, Iria, and to the extent of fathering one of her two children!!! I know Iria. Even if she did need to become pregnant to prove that her research worked, that it was now safe to have children naturally in space, she would not have slept with someone she did not have feelings for. Jack also *shakes head* ... I felt enough to know there was something there.

I'm feeling...I'm not sure how I'm feeling. Numb? Shocked? Upset? Probably all of those. It's brought home too, a lot of the issues that I've been trying to ignore for the most part since I came back here. I have so much unfinished business with my family, things that are never going to be resolved. Things I need to say and never will be able to. My father is dead. My sister has two children I will never see. I will never see her again. Hell, she doesn't even know that I am okay, that I am happy and in love with two wonderful men who love me in return.

I shouldn't be dwellling on these regrets but I can't help it. Father, I'm living my own life now. I know you wouldn't approve but part of me still wishes you would.

I'm sorry, but I have to live my life for me, be myself and be the best I can for Tro and Kev. Even if often I'm not sure I am entirely what or who they need, especially lately.

[Filtered for Tro and Kev] Saturday

Tue, 19 Jun 2007 02:48:29 GMT

I will be out this Saturday when Kev is home. I have study to do for my last exam on Monday and have decided rather than study at home I will go out and find a quiet spot elsewhere. I will be home for dinner.

The main reason I've decided to do this is so that you two have time together. I know we've been having problems all together and I have been feeling for a while that I have been running a certain amount of buffer between you and am concerned it is preventing you from talking through and dealing with some issues.

You also need to get to know each other better and how you work as a couple. I can't keep doing this, not just because of that but because I need to look after myself or I will not have any energy left to give you. The other night showed me that very clearly.

I'm sorry. I love you both.

Megabyte

Thu, 14 Jun 2007 03:11:43 GMT

Are you okay to meet for lunch this week? Whenever and wherever suits should be fine as I've finished classes and I need to take study breaks.

If you could let me know, then I can let Tro know as we were going to meet for coffee at some point as well.

Sorry I haven't been in touch sooner. It's been very busy trying to sort everything out for next semester with changing degrees.

Note

Mon, 11 Jun 2007 22:58:28 GMT

(follows on from this post: http://emerald-profile.livejournal.com/16088.html?mode=reply )

*gets home from running messages at uni, balancing a pile of books* *dumps them on the table, nearly knocking over the half empty cup of cold coffee*

*notices a piece of paper and a pen* *picks it up to read, wondering why Tro didn't just path me if he wanted something*

*smiles*

[I love you too, Tro.] *holds the note in my hand, reaching for you through the bond* [If you want to leave me notes, I'd like that. A lot.]

Letter from Kev

Sun, 27 May 2007 22:48:41 GMT

Kev asked me to post this for him:

Cat said that he would post this for me so I could say hello and let everyone know that I am doing well.

I am enjoying my work and learning a lot of new things. I miss Cat and Trowa and it is strange to be away from home without them and Bailey. My mentor is named Elly and she has been very good to me. She's teaching me to know the difference between where I can help change occur and where I cannot. It is not always easy, but she is very patient. I do know after working with the patients that I want to work with kids. It is not easy to tell someone who is old enough to be your mum that it is time to go to bed.

Every day I am grateful for Aunt Ruth and my friends. I know that I am very lucky when I hear the histories or read charts. I know that I have problems and I do not always deal with people or things in ways that are healthy, but I am a staff member and not a patient because of them. Elly told me yesterday that everyone walks that line and sometimes we are on one side more than the other. The most important thing is to know yourself and when to ask for help. Cat and Trowa have been telling me since we bonded that I do not always have to be strong and that it okay to need other people to lean on. If I want my patients to do that, to come to me for help, then I need to believe that is okay and the right thing to do. I need to live what I believe and preach.

Congradulations on your job Megan. I hope that you continue to enjoy it. Char, I was pleased to hear that the wedding went well. I was thinking of you on the day. I think of all of you every day and keep you in my prayers and my heart. Thank you for the gift of friendship you have given in the past and offer for the future.

Taking some time

Fri, 18 May 2007 02:40:27 GMT

Tro and I will not be around much for the rest of this week. He is feeling a lot better since Adam changed his medication but is still very tired. We both are.

As my lectures finish at lunchtime we are going to spend the rest of our days this week - and probably the weekend depending on what Kev would like to do once he gets home on Friday - on the island sitting in the sun.

We will be around when we can.

I'm sorry, Megabyte, that I've had to cancel lunch so often of late, maybe we can try for next week if Tro has fully recovered. I'd like to spend time with him until he has.

Harry or Adam

Mon, 14 May 2007 05:09:44 GMT

I'm worried about Trowa. The medication Harry prescribed doesn't seem to be helping, in fact I'm wondering if he is having a reaction to it as he seems no better and hasn't kept any food down since Saturday. When he's not vomiting he feels nauseous.

Meme Taken from Tro

Fri, 11 May 2007 07:35:23 GMT

I'm sorry I haven't been around for a while but I haven't been feeling well. Harry prescribed some medicine which has helped immensely although I am still coughing.

This is called the stupid things meme

Level 1
( ) Smoked A Cigarette
( ) Smoked A Cigar
(X) Kissed A Member Of The Same Sex
(X) Drank Alcohol

SO FAR: 2

Level 2
(X) Are / Been In Love
( ) Been Dumped
( ) Shoplifted
() Been Fired
(X) Been In A Fist Fight.

SO FAR: 4

Level 4
() Had A Crush On An Older Person
() Skipped School
(X?) Slept With A Co-worker (I'm presuming Duo and Tro count as those as we were Gundam pilots together)
(X) Seen Someone / Something Die

SO FAR: 6

Level 5
(X) Had / Have A Crush On One Of Your LiveJournal Friends
(X) Been To Paris
(X) Been To Spain
(X) Been On A Plane
(X) Thrown Up From Drinking

SO FAR: 11

Level 6
(X) Eaten Sushi
() Been Snowboarding
() Met Someone BECAUSE Of LiveJournal
() Been in a Mosh Pit (I'm not sure what this is)

SO FAR: 12

Level 7
() Been In An Abusive Relationship
(X) Taken Pain Killers (Tylenol counts)
(X?) Love/loved Someone Who You Cant Have - or thought I couldn't.
(X) Laid On Your Back And Watched Cloud Shapes Go By
(X) Made A Snow Angel

SO FAR: 16

Level 8
(X) Had A Tea Party (not since I was a child)
() Flown A Kite
() Built A Sand Castle
() Gone mudding (offroading)
(X) Played Dress Up

SO FAR: 18

Level 9
(X) Jumped Into A Pile Of Leaves
() Gone Sledging
() Cheated While Playing A Game
(X) Been Lonely
(X) Fallen Asleep At Work / School

SO FAR: 21

Level 10
(X) Watched The Sun Set
(X) Felt An Earthquake
(X) Killed A Snake

SO FAR: 24

Level 11
(X) Been Tickled
(X) Been Robbed / Vandalized
() Been cheated on
(X) Been Misunderstood

SO FAR: 27

Level 12
(X) Won A Contest
() Been Suspended From School
( ) Had Detention
(X) Been In A Car / Motorcycle Accident

SO FAR: 29

Level 13
() Had / Have Braces
(X) Eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night [Just a PINT?]
(X) Danced in the moonlight

SO FAR: 31

Level 14
() Hated The Way You Look
(X) Witnessed A Crime
() Pole Danced
(X) Questioned Your Heart
() Been obsessed with post-it-notes

SO FAR: 33

Level 15
() Squished Barefoot Through The Mud
(X) Been Lost
(X) Been To The Opposite Side Of The World
(X) Swam In The Ocean
(X) Felt Like You Were Dying

SO FAR: 37

Level 16
(X) Cried Yourself To Sleep
(X?) Played Cops And Robbers
() Recently Colored With Crayons / Colored Pencils / Markers
() Sang Karaoke
() Paid For A Meal With Only Coins

SO FAR: 39

Level 17
(X) Done Something You Told Yourself You Wouldn't
() Made Prank Phone Calls
() Laughed Until Some Kind Of Beverage Came Out Of Your Nose
(X) Kissed In The Rain

SO FAR: 41

Level 18
() Written A Letter To Santa Claus
(X) Watched The Sun Set/ sun rise With Someone You Care/Cared About
() Blown Bubbles
() Made A Bonfire On The Beach or anywhere

SO FAR:42

Level 19
() Crashed A Party
() Have Traveled More Than 5 Days With A Car Full Of People
() Gone Rollerskating / Blading
(X) Had A Wish Come True - *smiles*
( ) Been Humped By A Monkey

SO FAR: 43

Level 20
() Worn Pearls
(X) Jumped Off A Bridge
() Screamed "Penis" or "Vagina"
( ) Swam With Dolphins..

SO FAR: 44

Level 22
() Got Your Tongue Stuck To A Pole/Freezer/ice Cube
() Kissed A Fish
(X) Worn The Opposite Sex's Clothes
(X) Sat On A Roof Top

SO FAR: 46

Level 23
(X) Screamed At The Top Of Your Lungs
() Done / Attempted A One-Handed Cartwheel
() Talked On The Phone For More Than 6 Hours
(X) Recently stayed Up for a while talking to someone you care about

SO FAR: 48

Level 24
() Picked And Ate An Apple Right Off The Tree
(X) Climbed A Tree
() Had/Been In A Tree House
(X) Been scared To Watch Scary Movies Alone

SO FAR: 50

Level 25
(X) Believed In Ghosts
() Have had More Then 30 Pairs Of Shoes
() Gone Streaking
(X) Visited Jail - usually for strategic reasons, I'd like to add.

SO FAR: 52

Level 26
() Played Chicken
(X) Been Pushed into a pool with all your clothes on
(X) Been Told You're Hot By A Complete Stranger
() Broken A Bone
(X) Been Easily Amused

SO FAR: 55

Level 27
() Caught A Fish Then Ate It Later
() Made A Porn Video/got asked to make one
(X) Caught A Butterfly
(X) Laughed So Hard You Cried
() Cried So Hard You Laughed

SO FAR: 57

Level 28
(X) Mooned/Flashed Someone - but only in the privacy of our bedroom
(X) Had Someone Moon/Flash You - idem ditto
() Cheated On A Test
() Forgotten Someone's Name
() French Braided Someones Hair
(X) Gone Skinny Dipping
() Been Kicked Out Of Your House
(X) Tried to hurt yourself

SO FAR: 61

Level 29
() Rode A Roller Coaster
() Went Scuba-Diving/Snorkeling
(X) Had A Cavity
(X) Black-Mailed Someone
(X) Been Black Mailed

SO FAR: 64

Level 31
(X) Been Used
() Fell Going Up The Stairs
() Licked A Cat
(X) Bitten Someone
(X) Licked Someone

SO FAR: 67

Level 32
(X) Been shot at/or at gunpoint
( ) Had sex in the rain
(X) Flattened someones tires
() Rode your car/truck until the gas light came on
() Got five dollars or less worth of gas

Total 69

Megabyte and Tro

Tue, 01 May 2007 18:26:43 GMT

Megabyte,

I'm going to have to cancel our weekly lunch today, sorry. I'm feeling a lot better since Adam healed me but I now have this assignment to catch up on as the extension was only until the end of this week. Maybe next week for lunch?

It's probably for the best anyway as I'm not in a great frame of mind to be around today anyway.

Tro,

I'm going to the library after lectures today to work on this assignment. If you want to come there directly when you're finished work, maybe we could have dinner out tonight? Or at least get some pizza on the way home.

I love you.

Adam or Harry

Tue, 01 May 2007 04:24:26 GMT

Would it be possible to arrange a medical certificate? I have a very heavy cold which I can't seem to get rid of and an assignment due which I can't focus on.

Tro suggested I should probably have a check up as well in case it's not viral, and I'm rather cautious about going to a doctor at the university for obvious reasons.

If one of you could, I'd appreciate it. Thank you.

Tro

Fri, 27 Apr 2007 09:52:02 GMT

Could you pick me up some lemsip or something similiar when you've finished work and wake me up when you get home?

This cold isn't shifting and my throat is sore now too. I'm tired and going to bed for a while to see if that will help. I can't seem to warm up and it will be warmer there.

Thanks, love.

Happy Birthday, Cait

Sat, 21 Apr 2007 10:14:57 GMT

With all our love, from Tro, Kev and me. Thank you for being a good friend, and we hope you enjoy your day.

*Hugs you*

Megabyte

Mon, 09 Apr 2007 06:48:01 GMT

I have promised to have lunch with Kev this week so he will be joining us on Wednesday if that is okay. We might have to just have coffee for a few weeks also rather than lunch.

Let me know.

[Behind the Curtain] Quatre and Kevin - Rings - 7 April 2007

Sat, 07 Apr 2007 21:22:06 GMT

Quatre: *empties out the laundry hamper and starts sorting through the clothes to put in the washing machine* *notices something fall out of Tro's jeans pocket* *bends over and picks up two small velvet bags* *frowns* *one of the bags is upside down and something falls out onto my hand* *looks at it* *goes very still* oh god.

Kevin: *looks up from where I am sitting on the couch reading a textbook* Cat? Are you okay?

Quatre: *Swallows, can feel the other shape through the velvet* *knows this is Tro's and I shouldn't be looking but figure the other has fallen out anyway and I already have a good idea what it is* *breathing speeding up even as I drop it into my hand to lay next to the one I'm already holding* *is only half aware you're talking to me* *manages a half choked sound*

Kevin: *gets up and goes into the bathroom where the laundry hamper is* Cat? *caresses you telepathically and projects calm*

Quatre: *turns around* *holds out my hand to you, so you can see the two gold rings laying in my palm* *hoarse voice* I found these in Tro's pocket.

Kevin: *picks them up very carefully and looks at them* *frowns* Why does Trowa have rings?

Quatre: *takes one and looks at it more closely, holding it up to the light* *very slowly* They are wedding bands, Kev. *isn't going to tell you just yet that they are similar to ones I've been looking at in a shop window for several months now and that is why I am sure**reads out the inscription on the one I'm holding* Tro, Kev, Cat.

Kevin: *looks at the one I'm holding and reading the inscription* Kev, Cat, Tro. *Confused*

Quatre: *repeats* Wedding bands, Kev. *glances at the rings and back at you* *mouth dry* I think....you only buy those if you're going to propose to someone.

Kevin: *frown deepens* But /why/? We're bonded and we can not get married.

Quatre: Because sometimes it's not what society says you can or can't do that matters, but...*can feel myself tearing up* *very slowly* I want this. I want to get married, Kev.

Kevin: *closes my hand around the ring and pulls you close* *rubs your back*

Quatre: *leans my head on your shoulder* *choked voice* That's why I know what the rings are. I've been looking at them, but.....*looks at you**blinks away the moisture in my eyes* I wasn't sure it would be what you and Tro wanted.

Kevin: [I have never thought about it.]

Quatre: *slightly sheepish* I have.*slightly wistful* Ever since Adam and Megabyte got married. I know we can't legally but *strokes the ring in my hand* I wanted rings and to exchange vows, that at least we'd be married in some shape or form.

Kevin: Oh. *feels bad I never realized* They had a very nice ceremony.

Quatre: *caresses your face* I know it would be something just for us and private but *looks down at the rings we're both holding* if this is what Tro wants and I'm guessing yes if he has these, do....*falters* do you want to?

Kevin: It would be very nice.

Quatre: *kisses you slowly, lingering* *holds you tightly, trying to calm myself* [I'm sorry, I'm feeling a little emotional] *looks at you closely* Are you sure you're okay with this?

Kevin: *stokes your back with the hand not holding the ring* I... I never thought about it.

Quatre: *Slightly sheepish* And I'm reacting like this and not even considering that. I'm sorry. That wasn't very considerate of me.

Kevin: *shakes my head* [I want you and Tro to be happy]

Quatre: [This is not just about us being happy but you as well. It affects all three of us. You need to want it too.] *bites my lip* *half whisper* I'm sorry. I didn't word that very well.

Kevin: [We are bonded. I do not need a ceremony] *caresses you telepathically* *slightly wistful* [It would be very nice to have a ring ]

Quatre: *caresses you back* [We are bonded, nothing changes that, but I'd also like something concrete, something I can touch. Something like this.] *goes quiet for a moment, not sure how to explain* I guess it's a statement to each other and to others that we love each other enough to do this, to commit. *shrugs* Megabyte and Adam were already bonded but they still got married. It's the same but maybe one step further? I'm sorry, love, I'm not explaining this very well.

Kevin: *nods slowly* We should have a ring for Trowa as well.

Quatre: *nods* It needs to be engraved like these with our names. *turns the ring in my hand over around, running my finger over it* We need to talk to him about this, it would be better to be able to give him a ring to match these when we do. *softly* It would show him more than words that we want this as he does.

Kevin: He is going to know that we saw them.

Quatre: I know. *wonders how long he's been carrying them around* *frowns* He never told us he had them or that he was even thinking about this.

Kevin: No. *pulls away slightly and looks at the ring again*

Quatre: What?

Kevin: He has not said anything. *turns it over in my hand and reads the inscription again*

Quatre: *bites my lip* *very very quietly* Neither did I. About how I was feeling.

Kevin: *suddenly feels very young and unsure* *keeps toying with the ring*

Quatre: *Places my hand on your arm* Kev? Love? Are you okay?

Kevin: *nods slowly* I never thought. I...

Quatre: *softly* You what?

Kevin: I didn't know that you and Trowa wanted this.

Quatre: I didn't know that Trowa wanted this either. *looks down* I never said anything because I wasn't sure how either of you would react. Maybe that is why he never said anything to us *reads the inscription again* Tro, Kev, Cat. *almost to myself* I think this one is yours. Your name is in the middle.

Kevin: *carefully trades rings with you* *studies the new one looking at the details of the inscription and feeling how warm to the touch the metal is*

Quatre: *looks at the new ring* *instinctively before I've realised what I've done slips it onto the fourth finger of my left hand and stares at it* *almost in awe* It feels right. *takes it off again quickly, knowing Tro isn't here* Can we sit down? I think I need to. *pauses* So do you.

Kevin: Okay. Do we need to put the rings back?

Quatre: *picks up the bags* *Hesitates* *looks at you* I'm not sure I want to.

Kevin: *Softly* They are not ours. They belong to Tro. *hesitantly hands you mine*

Quatre: I know. *wipes at my eyes* I'm sorry, Kev. *knows I'm not dealing with this very well* *takes your and puts both of them back into their separate bags* If we are going to get his we will need them to compare for the font for the inscription and we'll have to do it before he gets home. *hands you the bag with yours in* Do you want to keep yours safe for him and I'll keep mine? Or maybe we should keep each others?

Kevin: *takes the bag you offer me* I will keep yours safe. *puts it in my pocket still holding onto the bag.

Quatre: *nods* Okay, I will keep yours safe then. *quietly* Mine fitted perfectly, he knew the size. I wonder how long he's been planning this.

Kevin: He has worn my gloves before. We have the same size hands.

Quatre: *nods* He borrowed mine a while ago saying he had lost his. I thought it was odd at the time but didn't think any further of it.

Kevin: Do you know where he got them? We should get him one that matches as well.

Quatre: *nods rather sheepishly* They match the ones I've been looking at so I'd say they probably came from the same place. *frowns* We probably should go this morning if we can as it might take a while to engrave it. I have some money saved up so paying for it won't be a problem.

Kevin: No. I want to pay half . It is from both of us.

Quatre: I wasn't meaning I would pay all of it. I know it's from both of us. I just meant if you didn't have the money now it wouldn't be a problem as I have it.

Kevin: I have some money saved.

Quatre: *nods* I am not sure how to approach him exactly. Do we hand him the rings and just say we found them and see what he says? I was wondering about doing that and then giving him his or maybe do it at the same time?

Kevin: I don't know. *tightens my hold on the bag in my pocket* I am not very good with this.

Quatre: *takes your other hand in mine* I'm not very experienced in it either. We will work something out between us but worry about it one step at a time, okay? I doubt it will matter. He loves us and wants us as much we want him. *Slight smile* I suspect we will all be too emotional to worry about what was said in what order or how anyway.

Kevin: I want him to be happy. *softly* To feel loved.

Quatre: He is very much loved. *is quiet for a moment* I think he needs to feel needed, that we need him. I need him very much, both of you very much.

Kevin: I need you and Trowa as well.

Quatre: *smiles* It is something I am trying to say to him more often. *softly* Even though we know something to be true sometimes we still need to hear it, like I love you or I need you. I think that is some of the reason for the rings, for asking someone to marry you and needing to hear them say yes and then seeing their ring on your finger reminds you of that when they aren't there to do it themselves.

Kevin: *nods thoughtfully* *thinks I don't say it often enough*

Quatre: I'm sorry, love. I seem to be rambling today. Monologuing almost. *glances at my watch* If we want to be organised before Tro gets home we should probably go to the jeweler's now, especially if we are to get his ring engraved. *pauses* I was wondering if you'd like to have lunch out while we wait for the engraver. We could sit and talk for a while, I think we both need to do that. It's a lot to get hit with all at once.

Kevin: That sounds very nice. I would like that.

GIP

Fri, 06 Apr 2007 20:55:24 GMT

Thank you, lil_1337 for my new icon. I like it very much but must admit to being somewhat relieved that my own violin is not that shade of very bright pink.